Last night I couldn’t sleep; I wasn’t stressed, instead it was a beautiful, exhilarating, creative insomnia–probably the result of having spent my previous evening watching the sunset by the ocean.
Since I usually like to sleep nude, I got up and picked a pair of Pj’s and robe (weather is still cold) and went outside. The dim light of my flashlight weakly overwhelmed the darkness of the outside; everything seemed so intense. As I walked up to my favorite tree, I could hear different sounds; sounds we often are deaf to during the day. I picked a spot and sat next to my tree, looking up at the stars. I then decided to mentally write a letter to the night; a letter I will now share with you…
“Dear night, as I look up above, I see your luminescent diamonds (stars), how beautiful they look against your dark silk skirt. As I close my eyes, I find within my eyelids a darker night, lit only by the reflection of the film of my life which begins to unfold without any command. I cannot deny how at his moment; like last evening; I feel so inseparable from nature. There is a peace that radiates to my very core…for that I thank you.
As beautiful as the sun is, the twilight that brought you here showcased your amazing beauty. You have found me and I have found you; at this moment we are protagonists of pure magick. The shadows are all over yet I am not afraid. I can hear the sounds of crickets and the hoot of the owl. How long has it been since it last visited? Maybe it was him who woke me up tonight. It has been almost a year since I last saw him…yet now he is here. Will he stay?…probably not. By morning he will be gone and come the night, he will be ready to explore others forests…I wish I could fly with him…to see what he sees, engulfed and protected by you my beautiful darkness…beautiful night.
I talk to you night, because to you dreams and illusions are given. You are the faithful messenger between me and the ancient Gods. You are the one who helps me believe in other worldly things. Through you, I can reach the highest and deliver a kiss to those long gone and those who watch over me…my message “I miss you. Thank you for the lessons and protection”.
Sitting here I can imagine different worlds, different nights. I can breathe deeply and experience a soul orgasm…filled with pure energy and love. A love that soothes the pain within my soul and revives the sweet fire of my spirit.
I talk to you night, for you like the ocean, are responsible for the magick of my poetry. Like a lover you come to my aide when I can’t comprehend my own emotions. Your spirit taking over, lovingly guiding my hand and letting the words flow. Poems of pain, anger, loss but also of love, purity, strength, sensuality, passion and so much more. I open my eyes and once more I contemplate the stars…beautiful lights to which I say …”I am here…find me. Let the Gods guide our paths…no fears…just follow the stars”.
As I get up, I can feel my whole body relaxed, ready to succumb to sweet sleep. I turn back and say “Thank you…until next time my sweet night”–I then head to bed…eager for a new day..new experiences…for life is but the moments we make of it.