Am I awake?, how to know?…
If am awake what a joy!!!…
Nowhere is there sadness…
The fog and the storms have vanished…
As I reach for my third glass of wine…
I feel my heart palpitate free and wild…
If this is a dream I want not to wake..
I look all around not a familiar face…
Yet my soul feels safer now than it ever did…
Outside snow covers the unfamiliar ground..
For years I waited for a snowflake…
As if it had the power to switch off my body…
A tired body which burned like coal…
It is said we all walked on paths of our choosing…
Is it so?, for in my life I encountered many strange paths…
Strange paths I could not recognize…
Paths chosen for me, with me; yet no memory remains…
Living with a secret which most would fear…
Sometimes knowing my world as familiar, others it’s not…
Walking paths and taking turns someone else chose…
Waters flow on the valley only because something commands it so…
I too live wrestling between destiny and choice…
Always carrying my Pandora’s box…
A secret so deep no one really knows…
Forever closing my lips so they won’t run away…
No more…no more…
Amnesia here, amnesia there, amnesia you became my friend…
Many like me walking among this world..
Hiding as if in shame and all alone…
Why do we have to pay for the brutality of men?…
No more..no more…
For years I’ve been nothing but a dead end…
Pandora’s box opened at a tender age…
Why should I be crucified for the violence of men?…
No more…No more…
We live among you, you cold hearts..
You who demand a price for every smile…
You who cry at an image of a poor child…
Yet coward at the sight of his aggressor’s work…
You who claim to love this world…
Yet demand those like us to hide behind a wall…
Shame on you for fake is your joy…
God put us among you to teach you to fight…
God put us among you to value your life…
We who have carried Pandora’s box for too long…
Chains imposed on a little child..
Lighting bolt on the opposing hill…
Thunder on the back hill…
A child in the middle crying out…
Tears and screams as mute as a dumb stone..
I was thrown in the flames and swam in dark waters..
I’ve fought hard and long to earned my life back…
Painful was the process of opening my eyes…
Razor sharp…
I’ve come back …
Here and there I see the lights…
No longer willing to be kept at bay, hidden and in shame…
For many like me need a voice…
Am not afraid of this world and its mockeries…
For I have also seen the light…
I’ve seen the beauty of those like me and those who are not…
I’ve seen how God chooses special souls to change a world…
We are different than you…
We feel intensely…
We love passionately…
We hear with our hearts…
Our minds a deep ocean; it’s many secrets we have untapped…
We are not scare to stand up against injustice…
That is who we are…
We are like you as well…
We dream, we cry, we get hurt, we laugh…
So for once let us join hands….
So we are different yet we are the same…
Let’s be like the waves…
One does not move alone, they all do…
Each wave different yet the same…
I no longer fear the monsters and the snakes…
Although confused at times, no longer lost…
Afraid at times, yet no longer scare…
Looking back, the mountain from which I descended has disappeared.
Where I am, although winter I can feel the autumn breeze…
Strong and powerful is the breeze of change…
The Universe wraps its loving arms around my waist…
As it carries me to an inner place of magic..
As it submerges me in the ocean of its wisdom and its strength…
Looking back now I can see its beautiful plan…
I’m no monster, nor are those like me…
The Universe chose our path well…
We earned our shields through all the pain…
Yet the loving lord protected our tender hearts…
Idealistic hearts that see deep and see well…
Freaks and misfits you call us because we stand tall and proud…
We don’t let hurt define us…
We don’t coward at your command…
We live by the eldest beat which keeps all alive…
Awake we are becoming and more and more we show who we are…
So here is to those like me, who have fought through the darkest of times…
Here is to you who have earned your place in life and are proud of your scars…
Here is to you who did not succumb to the horrors imposed…
Nor let your dreams died…
Here is to those who feel alone because they are different…
Beautiful you are…
Don’t let their mockery and hatred take away your pure heart…
You are not alone, many of us there are…
Even in the darkest of times, know there is a light…
Embrace yourself my dear and shine…
Do not be afraid to show just how beautifully freaky and special you are!!!

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