And she puts her boat in the water for the last time…
A tear will fall for the last time…
I wipe the tears from my face with your old shirt for the last time…
I cry about the last time I said goodbye to you…

More than oceans separate us…
More than continents themselves…
But in my heart you will remain…
Along with everything you taught me…

Memories seep from my veins…
Vivid pictures of you lay softly in the back of my mind…
But you now rest in the arms of the angels…
Everyday I wish you were here to hold me and make things right…
And comfort me through every obstacle in life…
And such a thought brings me weeping on my knees…

And everyday I picture you…
I remember you…
And everyday I struggle with the reality that you’re gone…
And with that struggle I make it threw another day….

Everything happens for a reason…
I like to believe yours was to toughen me up…
Remember how you use to say to me…
That you were the way you were with me..
So that one day I may take the world by surprise…
And no one can ever tear me down…
You taught me all you could…
You gave me all the love I ever needed during your last days…
The love for which I starved…
And now my only job is to remember and never to forget…

Rain is nothing but tears to me…
Tears from a man who wasn’t good at sharing his emotions…
Although going on without you upsets me…
Although I still struggle trying to understand…
Everything reminds me…
Where others hoped my love had a price…
You always knew that was a lie…
Maybe it was their reflection they were looking at…
It was theirs that had a price!..
A sister I can’t come to know..
A house I am not allowed to walk by…
No matter how much they tried to poison your heart…
At the end your heart saw mine…
They tried to hurt me at your funeral…
But they forgot…
There is a God that watches over everything..
And who one day will judge…
They tried to trample my name…
They tried to make me invisible…
But at the end all they did was revealed the darkness of their hearts..
Remember your last days?..
Is like you knew what was to come…
“I raised a Lion” you said…
“Let them not slaughter you as a lamb”…
“Write down what is happening here you said” wit tears in your eyes…
I wrote it down father..
And today am not afraid to cry…
I am not the lamb slaughtered…
But the phoenix who will rise…
Through it all good an bad…
You’ve taught me black and white…
You said gray was for cowards, not willing to take a stand…
I am not sure about all you’ve taught me dad…
But I do know..I had a father…
Who didn’t play with black and white…
He expressed his thoughts out loud…
He stood for what was in his heart…
Ruthless sometimes they called you…
But at least one knew what was your stand…
No need to hide behind fake smiles..
While stabbing on the back…
You didn’t do everything right…
I tried to forget the haunted memories…
When they do come I remember…
Everything happened for a reason…
I am not a gentle flower…
I am elixir in disguise…
I am a butterfly learning to fly…
And this butterfly at times pretends to be okay…
And hides the pain behind a smile…
And it’s always hard to deal with the pain of loosing you…
And force that smile when it just won’t come….

The wake comes off the bow…
The anchor is reeled in…

Another tear softly falls for him…

Advertisements