Where are you now?…

Have you seen my Daddy?…
I don’t know where he’s gone…
Sometimes it hurts so much…
I can’t seem to carry on….

I hear he doesn’t look quite the same…
He doesn’t need much rest…
The IV and medications are all gone…
In fact, he looks his best…

Is he playing tag with his parents?…
In that place way up high?…
Or is he napping in God’s garden…
Where the beautiful hammocks lie?…

Some say he is always watching…
I hope this to be true…
And that one day he’ll return to me…
And say, “I’ve come for you”…

Have you seen my Daddy?…
I imagine he’s doing okay…
Though it hurts to know…
I can’t call him every day….
Although it hurts to know …
He was taken away from me before he even left this place…

I really miss the loving father …
I met more on the last days…
I wasn’t ready to say goodbye…
It will never be the same…
Years from now, I know I’ll cry…
Wishing for what could have been…

I bet God is with my Daddy…
Wrapped up in His arms..
Sheltered from all illness and sorrow…
Keeping him from harm….
No more cancer to eat at him…
As bees to honey fly…

I bet he sees me mourning…
But would want me to smile…
And tell me our time apart…
Is only a little while…

I’ll never quite understand…
why they twisted and lied…
Why they tried to hurt me…
And keep us apart…
Mistakes we both made….
But that was not for them to judge…
Assuming they knew everything…
As if they could see our thoughts and actions…
In a magical mirror in the sky…
If only they had told me sooner…
What was going on in your life…
If only their stupid arrogance pride and ignorance..
had not gotten in the way…
Thank goodness for my uncle..
A brother to you who knew what was right…
Who didn’t wait to call me…
Who understood that a daughter’s love surpasses any differences..
and rushes to her father..to be there by his side…
Remember the last days?…
I could not leave your side…
My emotions were so mixed…
I wanted to yell and cry…
Whom made them judge and jury?…
Who told them they could decide?..
To hide your condition…
To hide it all that time…
It was not the first time it happened..
Crocodile tears and smiles…
I learnt strength from you..
I learn to walk away from mom..
No vindictive nature on my mother…
That’s a blessing and a charm..
Perhaps my life was different…
So in me the best of two souls came to life…
I am thankful more and more everyday…
For every trial in my life…
For every day I wished for death…
For every mistake and every hurt that has come..
I know it sounds odd to say am thankful..
But that has made me who I am…
God picked a father and mother for me…
Knowing what was to come…
He let me taste the love of a father in all its splendor…
Even if for a short little while…
Why our time here was so small…
I will never know why…
But you said you’ll always be there…
To catch me when I fall….

I miss you so much Daddy…
But I hope and pray…
That when it’s my time you’ll come for me…
I’ll see you again someday….
I guess that is how it was meant to be….
Now your life in paradise…
Has only just begun…
Tears that I weep and prayers…
Will hopefully travel very far…
To reach my father…
Sitting among the stars….

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